The tree
Want to be strong as the tree
in the gentle wind feel free
leaves hanging there up in the sky
rain is its only cry
with roots standing so tall
endures it all
the storm yes, every hard weather
it keeps itself together
The tree older than any man
I am its true fan
In my boy's eyes
I love him so much
give him a stroking touch
on his smooth chin
and I feel love within
he's my precious boy
fragile like a paper toy
makes me weep
to see his agony so deep
his eyes in fear
soon they will shed a tear
see the pain in his eyes
those in where the truth lies
I wipe his tears away
he and I are both astray
in my boy's eyes I see me
I just want him to feel free
Pieces
pieces, pieces to collect
building a puzzle
cannot see the picture to be
eyes starring, no pattern
pieces, pieces to fit together
cannot lift them up
my fingers are numb
pieces, pieces all in darkest black
no shadows no marks
no image to be seen
pieces, pieces yet no way
to put them together
left in confusion
I give up
Together as one
Come closer
do not be afraid
open your heart
feel free to say the words unspoken
my ears are for you
let your mind get some peace
I will walk beside you
help you carry the weight
together as one
we will walk steady on the path of life
giving each other energy
when we feel like the spark is forever gone
I am here for you
you are here for me
together we are stronger than any furious storm
keep your hand in mine and I will never let go
New day
woke up to this new day
eyes hurting, sore, too much crying
dizzy, weak, numb
new day, will you bring me more hours of misery?
then I will not greet you!
keep away from me!
new day- your minutes have been counted
I will not feel them, they are not for me!
new day- feel no pride, being here!
you are not so special, not so new!
I have met you before
and I still do not want you around
no, you are not for me!
My beloved son
so little so small
feeling it all
lost and searching
in the jungle of words
confused- just looking
anxiety growing
sadness showing
feeling so lost
to what cost
a boy in the fog
feeling smaller than small
he is my son
my beloved fruit
I feel his heart
it's beating like mine
I see the look on his face
telling me to be his guide
his eyes in deepest blue
the mirror of his mind
not easy my boy
but trust me
I am your mom
I love you
all of you
The invisible one
screaming
crying
why
to be seen by others
to feel love
in the shadow of her brother
my little girl- I see you
I promise
I love you, my sweet doll
I know you're hurting
in need to be heard
need to be held
I know you
I feel your feelings
I love your smile
glowing like a sunbeam
mom adores you
I see you
Snow
In the time of winter
white glittering flakes falling down so gently
from the winter sky
Whiteness covering grass, every stone
soft so soft nature's bed-quilt
Eyes stunned by the brightness
beauty of it all
Stars in the darkest hour
snow on the surface of Earth
a composition mighty like few
See ME
this feeling stuck inside
now I will to you confide
I'm just a wanderer on this Earth
been invisible ever since my birth
see me with your eyes
to get the picture- which in there lies
x-ray can not find more than the human eye
so look carefully - please try
I want to let you know
let your knowledge about me grow
because I love you so
so please don't ever let go
keep my hand in yours
walk beside me on the sea shores
to see the sun rising in the morning
the waters to feel this yellow globe- warming
walk with me all day long
sing to me your song
when the darkness come rolling in from up above
keep me safe with your deep love
two pair of eyes to greet the peaceful black
until the bright light is slowly coming back
Chances put at zero
freezing empty
time flies
left behind in the cold
tears frozen eyes in pain
footsteps leaving no trace
temperature falling
heart is calling
mayday
mayday
slowly breathing
air in stiff lunges
how much longer
when is the time
numbness coming
feel no more
snow keep falling
covering up
rescue lost in blizzard rough
searching looking
listening
flash lights playing
no more
nothing
gone
zero
Stuck
You speak to me
I listen to your words
my mind starts to spin
what did that mean?
why those words?
am I a fool
to believe in the words spoken?
questions
thoughts
standing in line
to join
the merry-go-round of my mind
destructive thoughts
in a million angles
I am stuck
in the quicksand of disbelief
Good night, World!
time to sleep
not to weep
tomorrow will be a good day
at least so they say
so Good night you all out there
pick up that silly nightcap to wear
soon the sun will arrive to show it's light
yet a new day to continue this fight
Good night, World!
Over and out!
Sweet Fruit
oh how sweet isn't the fruit of forgiveness
how soft like cotton around your heart
how will love grow in this world without forgiveness
human beings walking around breathing the same air
drinking the same water
the same sun shining on us all
who am I to judge you?
who are you to judge me?
yes we hurt each other
yes we fail to understand each other
yes we make mistakes
the sweet fruit of forgiveness
ought to be given with a gentle hand
to be eaten by those in remorse
peace- the bond to keep humans united
Unmerciful feelings
Made of cement and steel,
uninvited rules my mind
So heavy and hard to handle
Cannot throw them away
So tired, so weak
No power, to seek
Empty
Feelings with sharp claws
hooked in my brain
making a huge bloody stain
Long for joy and happiness
instead of this dreadful mess
Walking on the bottom of the ocean
no air, in my lounges
Need to get up to the surface
See the sun shining so bright
The soft clouds caressing my mind
Crying Laughter
the crash is near
I can sense the fear
crying laughter
what am I after
tears are pushing to get out
don't know what it's all about
this weird feeling
far from healing
who am I
need to be my own spy
find what lies inside
maybe learn to feel some pride
head is hanging heavy from my neck
I feel like a living dead wreck
hold your arms around me close
if you only knew how I need those
keep me safe from harm
under your caring arm
crying laughter
what are you after
The end of the rope
trying to hang on to faith
arms in tremendous cramp
cause the time has gone by
year after year
week after week
day after day
hour after hour
still not managed to reach the top
this tree too huge to climb
to much wind is trying to knock me down
raindrops keep falling, from the rising of the sun
until the deep orange dawn in the late afternoon
a circle going around around
never to stop
the rope is wet getting terribly difficult to hold on to
can see myself falling down to the merciless soil
but I know pain- how much more could I suffer
please take my hand, lift me up
let me cry in your arms, out off danger
on a strong thick branch, with you
to rest my tired eyes on the magnificent view
my power my energy, slipping away
so please, rescue me
I'm at the end of the rope
The Tongue
Kiss the love of your life
Taste a juicy fruit
Speak words of love
The Tongue
little but yet so huge
can make a heart beat faster
can also cut deep as a sword
The Tongue
treasure this tiny muscle
feel it touching your teeth
it will obey you
only you
The Tongue
use it to do good
don't let it out in the open
when rage is its only language
let it form beautiful words
The Tongue
a gift from our creator
The Human body
blood in roads of veins
water holding life in its sea
nerves reacting, feeling
sending impulses to the boss
spinal cord getting its share too
muscles big as well as tiny- working for us
spine holding us up to let us walk
a list as long as the eternity
it would take to describe our body
so let us treasure it with our lives
knowing that we have been formed
by a loving creator
.
nothing but a single dot
you do not see me
you never notice me
you step on me
for I am just a little dot
this dot has reached the end
of the sentence
did you see the dot
before the sentence after
no- just kept on reading
cause I am just a tiny dot
One moment in time
had to let go
caught by time
unwillingly walking away
ending- bitter sweet
joy pleasure- to keep in mind
one moment transforming into a glorious memory
one moment to treasure for life
one moment- now- then- gone
boom like a balloon, air disappearing into the blue
air never to be filling that balloon ever again
a balloon- so fragile but yet so powerful
its weakness can be seen- laying there on the ground
empty useless- a former shell to harbour strength
the human camera can yet still recall its mighty flight
so light- but yet so hard- filled with human breathing
drawn on the surface of the retina- never to be erased
Springtime
the sun is back to greet our day
birds in every tree
listen and hear their joyful singing
sky is blue as the ocean deep
snow is melting into water
soil is drinking with eager
flowers appear from within
faded grey turns into glowing colours
spring is time for waking up
lift up your heart from sleeping
put I smile on your face
feel how nature is growing
blooming with steady steps
let it give you some of its strength
to carry on living
to stand tall like the flowers
in springtime
The place
darkness
thick as grease
stumbling around
searching
agony twisting my heart
black clouds above
dark brown soil
heavy corners of my mouth
high pressure in my eye socket
salty water held back
breathless lungs
let me leave this place
Victorious
Nordic winds keep coming in
to chill my heart within
freezing my veins so fast
how long will this pain last
tears rolling down my cheek
oh, I feel so weak
come ease this hurt of mine
make me feel just fine
life is oh so confusing
seems like I'm always losing
I will yet fight this mean game
to let misery go in shame
Keep going
talk is silver
silence is golden
when times are rough
feels like you've had enough
look inside to find your peace
make it happen- release
some things you can not change
they are just simply out of range
keep your mind sane
erase every dark stain
see the light on your road
put down that heavy load
leave the past behind
new treasures you will find
The bird's nest
High up in an old oak tree
the bird has to create a home
much effort it will take for you, little bird
it has to be solid and strong
not to be caught by the rage of wind
secure and warm without any heating
stuff it well little bird
because the cold air
will soon enter the sky
one room will carry life
of more than one little bird
eggs, to hide tiny baby birds in its shells
please, make your nest a safe place
when the sun arrives
carrying spring in its beams
us humans will listen to your crescendo of tones
feeling reborn after the cold dark winter
Danger
A sign up ahead
in sharpest red
letters forming this word
sirens can be heard
too far away to see
hmm which word could that be
driving closer- eyes starring
hmm what is that man wearing
oh it's the member of a rescue team
someone must have fell into that furious stream
DANGER- the word becomes so clear to me
a person stuck in the car struggling to get free
the seat belt will not let go
the car is filling up with water OH,NO!
makes you think further than before
trying to stay alive he's fighting more and more
life is fragile- can so easily run through our fingers
memories of those not with us anymore still lingers
please let us value the life- received in our hand
even if we don't like the label and the brand
because it's a gift to hold on to
both for me and for you
Listen
can you here it whispering your name
can you feel it touching your hair
the soft warm summer breeze
taking you for a slow ride
close your eyes and see inside your mind
children laughing
birds singing in the light blue sky
grass so soft under your feet
you're breathing the air of life
seize the moment
fill your heart with peace
harmony for a soul in need
The Indian
he picked up that well structured feather
combined it with this little piece of smooth leather
two items that meant a lot to his pride
because he knew to hold nature inside
women and children needed it to grow
to eatable herbs, berries and seeds to their eyes show
the men were brave riding on horses to find
some preys to hunt- stomachs to stay kind
buffaloes... this mighty view to one's eye
the treasure for which they would spy
to feed the tribe- young and old
they had to return with meat to hold
the people of nature keep them in mind
a certain way of living they did indeed find
Breathing oooooooooout
used words so many
I wish I could for each one get a penny
then I would be rich
unfortunately still in this deep ditch
he really listened yes understood
made it easy not to hide under that hood
his words of compassion- his calm way
that combination made me feel less astray
I am tired
but more inspired
this fight is not over yet
I still have to sweat
in this life I am only an untrained beginner
in time I will walk my head held high- as the winner
The Secret
it is there hidden inside
where it will continue to hide
want to shout it out so loud
no way- I can not reveal it to the crowd!
kept inside for a long time
well it is not a crime
but it is heavy enough to carry around
trying to force my knees to the ground
the secret is to be forever locked behind door and key
it can never ever be let out to be free
Think
the night is dark
far away in the distance you hear a dog bark
shivering in the cold humid air you walk with stiff feet
it is wintertime- snow covering the street
all you want to is to get in to that fire place
sit down on a chair by the table to say grace
eat that warm potatoes with sauce and meat
your stomach makes a sound of contempt- the food to greet
you have a house... you have a home... food… clothes… heating- yes
that guy sitting there outside on a news-paper rubbing his hands- his life is a mess
think... yes think...
all he has is what is in that bottle... to drink
be satisfied with what you've got
others they have nothing... no, they have not.
Never good enough
you make me feel so bad
yes my heart so sad
I hurt so much
don't you know how your words touch
touch inside my fragile soul
makes it even harder to reach that goal
I want to feel the wind in my hair
feel free- but life is not fair
can't you see I'm trying
although my whole body is crying
when will you tell me- I love you
not to make me feel so blue
I need you to care
because this pain is so heavy to bear
am I a complete failure in life
should I maybe make friends with that knife
I feel so small
time after time I fall
please show me mercy please
I only want peace
I hunger for your words of compassion
starving in need for a huge ration
why am I the one forced to silence
my heart enduring this cruel emotional violence
Looking down on me
sadness inside my chest
when I lay my body down to rest
who am I to you
yes you
am I a sad figure made of air
what is it you want me to declare
that you're the one so much better than me
the one in first position to see
to look down on me when I'm falling
never to lend me your hand when I'm calling
Dying inside
sad
mad
lost
crying
tears many as raindrops falling
I can no longer hear you calling
heavy chain around my neck
nothing more than a wreck
I hate me
can't you see
been going on for too long
impossible to sing a joyful song
on the ground... dirty... cold
been once and for all sold
to the screams... tears... weirdness of it all
don't want to continue to crawl
Learn how to fly
my little darling... please don't cry
soon your wings will get ready to fly
I know... your friends are flying up in the light air
I feel your sadness- my sweet baby bird
mama loves you more than you'll ever know
to fly is fun- but there are things more important
you need to grow... to learn the outside world
the map I will give to you- my sweet little girl
soon enough your wings will get eager to move
to be riding the winds above in that clear blue sky
Go to bed, OCD!
aha...
you are already awake
you fake!
why couldn't you stay in bed
suffocate yourself with that pillow instead
I don't want you to be a guest inside my brain
to leave all your thoughts making a huge stain
you have not been invited- so just go!
this is not your show!
I close my eyes- open them... you are still there
leave me be- you are only a burden to bear
go to bed, OCD!!!!
yes, you heard me!
I will not give in
to see you with that silly grin
go to bed!!!
wish you were dead!
Expiring flame
dying fire
nothing to really inspire
no air to feed the flame
a place without oxygen is my claim
orange colour only to puff
because it leads a life so rough
fire gasping for air
soon this ordeal will be too much to bear
smother it just a tiny bit longer
never to be able to get stronger
only grey ashes left of these coals once black
fire forever gone never to come back
The Flower
can you see that flower standing there in all its beauty
it does not know much about this world
with sparkling colours to calm our eyes
proudly presenting a scene with glorious power
one single flower... glowing like the sun itself
wonderful as the only one... even more amazing in the company of others
surrounded by friends drinking The Water of Life from Mother Earth
together they create a pattern amongst the deep green grass
growing so tight beside one another
to keep standing tall- even in the rough wind
the flowers are you and me
so valuable each and everyone of us
together we are strong
building a texture out of feelings...
thoughts...
hopes...
colours- magnificent, to The Eye of The Heart
come let us drink together
to wet our dry throats
This is the day
today
is a new fresh day
with hours never used before
no second hand seconds
unknown things can happen any time
just wait and see- a bright surprise might arrive
you never know what this day will bring to you
an unwritten chapter in this life of yours
too tired- don't want to get up
too sad- want to stay in bed
what if this is the day
the day to laugh
the day when tears are dry
this is the day
to feel hope
U-turn
bright light
up for the fight
smiling face
life embrace
lighter walk
happier talk
BOOM
square one
no more fun
eyes sad
feeling bad
gasping for air
so unfair
blood is freezing
pain is teasing
sunshine on my back
legs walking on a wrong- way- track
Forgive me
my words of love- I give to you
in pain we try to endure
this life in so much hurt
confused, walking side by side
please, let us hide no more
you are my safety
you are my man
you stick by me day by day
been looking too far away
I am sorry
did not see the love in you
your mouth did never open
the key of love
made you talk
how grateful I am
to you my man
for the love you hold inside, for little me
now I see your heart
hand in hand we will ride this storm
today, tomorrow, every day yet to come
forgive me my love
I am yours
The right receiver
I gave you a flower
you knew it was fragile
it was there on your palm
you closed your hand!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
that flower
worth nothing in your eyes
I wish I never gave it to you
you were not the right receiver
but tell me
how can you ever know for certain
who to give your flower to?
Black
the colour black
I carry around on my back
don't wanna sleep
only wish I could weep
my eye in pain
but I should not complain
there are those in misery worse than mine
I will put on that mask- everything is just fine
the truth is- I'm scared to the very marrow of my bones
to carry black, is the same as carrying heavy stones
Your eyes
eyes so sad
showing
revealing
tears
eyes
your eyes
are my eyes too
your eyes
reflecting in mine
your tears are my tears
close your eyes
rest a while
feel calm
feel safe
open your eyes
I will still be here
Faked smile
why laugh
when you only feel half
because it's good
that I've understood
but it's so hard
to pick the right card
not easy to force a smile to come
when you can't see the light from the sun
to pretend is maybe not the end
makes it easier to come through the bend
or does it really
tell me sincerely
when you laugh out loud
do you feel like you're walking upon a cloud
or does your mind tell you that it's fake
this huge smile you're trying to make
I know I'm thinking too much
caught once again by this merciless clutch
A fool once again
words are soundless
voice is silent
why is that?
have I done wrong?
want to listen
but all is kept in silence
not spoken to my ear
am I not the one for you?
maybe there's another
you're waiting for
am I just a comfort
when no one is there?
I don't want a part of such game!
been there before
it's pure pain!
using my heart
is that what you're up to?
if it is I'm gone!
hurt before
hurt today
not tomorrow!
The light
new day is dawning
I'm sitting here yawning
want to go back to bed
will this day on me any light shed
I sure hope so- you know
in need of that certain glow
lost on this travelling road
crawling because of this heavy load
try to lift myself up on legs unsteady
when will they ever be ready
to take steps in the right direction
to greet the morning lights reflection
shining through my window so bright
absolutely worth one more fight
Fading
always try to be nice
is it worth the price
when kind is not enough
life is unfairly rough
good, wanted- for some time
then, gone is all the chime
useless
in a mess
left alone in distress
everyone wants you to confess
yes I am the guilty one
to feel no dignity, under this sun
because when you have eaten up what is inside of me
you take off to another flower like a bee
this flower is dying
nothing left for any bee flying
time has gone by
many times been told nothing but a lie
let this flower rest in fading colour dry
nothing more to give because it is about to die
Strange days
puzzled
heart in joy
yes- joy
mind is sleeping-
then again- not
lost in thoughts
vision blurry
what is going on?
I don't know
do you?
Sorry
nothing left to give
do not want to live
in this thick sticky black oil
crawling around in dirt and soil
covered with darkness and dust
in need to readjust
this life in emptiness
not good at playing this game of chess
strategies are to no use
because all I do is lose
I love you, yes you and you each day
I'm sorry but this pot made of fragile clay
is no longer a good supporter in this play
hollow is my name
fading flame
Reach the light- when
can't find my way back
all I seem to be is stuck
in this valley of grey- mud up to my knees
nowhere to go to find release
how did I end up here
when is the time to erase all fear
my silent screams- no echo - not a sound
here I am wet and cold on the ground
beaten by others... beaten by myself
if only I could reach that shelf
then I would be on my way
no longer here to stay
climb higher and higher towards the light
to finally see an end to this fight
Unknown language
blood is running through every vein
filling your body with life
rain is coming down from heavy clouds
watering the earth with refreshing drops
you speak a language I need to learn
caught in misery in fight for survival
never got used to the words of love
feel a calmness floating into this body of mine
scary but wonderful at the very same time
teach me to receive this language new to my mind
I am willing to learn day by day
this language with words covering my very soul
I want to know the secret of it all
to find ways to believe in the feeling of love
blood is running through every vein
we should not complain
rain is watering the ground on which we are walking
let it rain- doesn't matter if we get wet from head to toe
because rain... is the life of earth
blood rain love
LIFE
You ask me... Why?!
why I am listening to you?
because you are YOU
I see what lives inside of you
what else is there for me to do?
turn my back on someone in need?
no, that's not me
as long as I possibly can
it is my wish to be there for you
though my heart and mind is hurting
I can not see to only me
my eyes wide open
my ears ready to receive the sound of your voice
I know I should listen more to me
but listening to you is all I know
to help you see your beautiful mind and lovable heart
makes me feel meaningful
if I can make just one person feel a tiny bit better
it warms my heart
I need you to need me
my heart is in hunger for love
so please invite me to your heart
Travellers
maybe I'm just a fake
in life a huge mistake
who ever I am for real
is really no big deal
the centre of it all
is that I might be small
but small can be big, when it comes to love
this is who I am- everything else above
carrier of loving feelings towards you
tells you more about me, than my life untrue
take me with you on this travelling road
I will try not to be a heavy load
only want some company on this journey so long
together- we could make each other strong
this invitation goes out to you today
then if you join- please forever stay
Love is
Love is
a healer
a friend
a lover
Love is
longing
trust
hope
Love is
a wish
a treasure
a song
Love is
touching
warm
soft
Love is
a light
a gift
a strength
Love is
life
comfort
enduring
I despise
this body with faults here and there
mind telling lies until I believe them all
heart in pain, wanting to be touched by your hand
I despise the creation of me
how could I not- when I see all stains
you tell me, you love me
my ears wide open
they hear the words spoken
then- my brain takes over
with contemptuous thoughts
judging every part of my own being
I want to trust in what your mouth is saying
but my mind won't let me
I despise the creation of me
need you to be patient
teach me how to trust
I don't have it in me
once upon a time it fled my mind
hurt with scares remaining year after year
I despise the creation of me
want to learn how to embrace love given to me
little by little, step by step
chapter by chapter in this book of my life
I want to learn how to relax
to rest in the beauty of love
Rare beauty
when the shadows from the past
seem to grow so fast
coming closer and haunting your mind
walk straight forward try not to look behind
the history is not who you are
even though it has left a huge scar
days of happiness awaits you
so please see this through
tears from eyes- in sadness drowning
because of other people frowning
with thoughtless words talking
just expect you to keep on walking
blood in need to get warmer in their veins
still you are amazing but caught in chains
you are a woman with inner beauty so rare
always with a gentle heart to share
blinded by their own foolishness
they won't even confess
to admit their faults in old days
that made you hurt in many ways
you are a beautiful flower with nectar to feed others
taking care of your guests- sisters and brothers
we are your companions- never to leave your side
you don't ever need to hide
we know you- your value is priceless
let us be there for you to ease your loneliness
How long?
soothing my entire soul
caressing my mind with gentle strokes
words of gold entering my ears
longing to feel calm
it is brought to me an injection
of feelings to heal my being
darkness is bright
no difference
between night and day
how long will it stay this way
pitch black is the colour I am used to
scared
afraid of waking
to find that it is all gone
Special connection
more than this
more than that
special indeed
same road walking
same way of talking
words in colourful clothes
a box of feelings- running over
signals need no interpreter
code is useless
inner eye viewing them all
reading listening
a glance of your face
know the look
thoughts from the past
we rip them apart
power force
special connection
Grey
when the fog is rolling in
you feel confusion within
grey is the colour to embrace
no choice in how to turn your face
thick like smoke from burning fire
where is the love that you desire
searching with eyes in air so heavy
in struggle to keep legs steady
heart beating fast inside your chest
when will you find a place to rest
Reborn
this morning
new day dawning
air filled with freshness
yesterday meaningless
breathing reborn by sleep
no longer time to weep
now is the time to live
love compassion to give
face turned to the sun
this day has only just begun
To belong
alone
not what we need
belong
hearts to feed
together
mutual understanding
on soft grass landing
love
raise us up above the dark sky
our hearts with wings to fly
you
the herb to heal my flesh
the method to refresh
us
united in this furious hurricane
to keep mind safe and sane
belong
heart to heart in living days
need support in many ways
belong
a synchronized smile
makes everything worthwhile
An End
need an end
no longer pretend
lost in my own confusion
maybe there are no solution
I dread
the things in my head
were did I go
I do not know
lost my direction
along with my protection
transparent is my skin
revealed is my heart within
easy to hurt- with words in cutting red
ought to once again hide inside my shed
like a dog play dead
Piece of art
valuable
so suitable
in my heart
living art
walking around
in my mind's playground
soothing my soul
filling every hole
feel calm
my hand against your palm
passing by every milestone
into the future's unknown
Alone but not
you say you care
believe in it I don't dare
years been passing by
been told lie by lie
wounds not healed
on the ground lies my shield
surrender, give in
no... I want to win
teach my eyes to see
faces right in front of me
be gentle to this heart of mine
let us follow that road sign
find a place to rest until morning sun
waking up far away from that pointing gun
survivors in this play
no longer astray
Silent cry
tears rolling down
pouring like autumn rain
eyes red in sadness trapped
shoulders turning stiff
tension building its nest
lips trembling
mouth dry
head in palms
nobody to hear your cry
because it is not there
Different languages
you say the things, you see as true
I talk my way through every day, just like you
the bond between words is not always strong
many time we do not understand what went wrong
lost in confusion, because of words so many
compassion calmness tolerance love
tools to make bridges between you and me
written words or spoken
the circle to keep unbroken
if we both are willing to believe
there is nothing we can't achieve
deep feeling of togetherness
is what will come out of this process
your words are mine to learn
my words are yours to translate
into feelings, events, actions, thoughts
The Language of Love
spoken through thousands of years in time
yet not old- never to age
the unwritten language
The Language of Love
Come
I might be different
but my heart is just like yours
beating every day
every minute
every second
for life
take me in your arms
need to feel safe against your chest
a lonely wanderer longing for love
teach me to trust
to relax
take me as I am
I will love you in purity
never turn my back on you
all I need, is the love you need too
let me swim in your heart's blood
to come with you on this journey
let me ease your hurt in days of trouble
laugh with you, in times of happiness
want to show you ME
if you let me in
my doors wide open for you to enter my heart
Good morning!
sitting here rocking to some tunes
life is quite wonderful after all
we've got the flowers and the bees
the honey and the trees
music in our ears
birds singing a crescendo of tones
sky in ocean blue
sun shining bright with golden beams
children laughing giving away such release
my heart goes out to you all
you and I are alive to see the little things
see above these walls of pain
you are unique
search your soul
and there YOU are
only YOU
be gentle to the one inside
try not to hide
when the tide comes rolling in
you will learn how to love
what lies within
The Play
tell myself I am ok
fighting this battle each day
truth has caught me in its strong hand
crying- standing on the edge of this stand
this crappy play- this life of mine
worthlessness in every line
throw tomatoes at me
I'm a bad actor- you see
time for the curtain to fall
hide away from it all
Not alone
when you feel like all hope is gone
no point in going on
know it will reach a moment to change
freedom is not out of range
days as deep black as in the very night
can suddenly turn into this guiding light
until the brightness catches your eyes
we will be there beside you watching the skies
you are not alone walking on this dark road
we are here to help you carry that heavy load
Talk
small talk
too much talk
what did I just say
oh no maybe not the right way
see me as a fool
is that what you are doing
how can I know
searching looking for answers
erosion ruining my brain
energy fled to another place
now I stand here all alone
hearing myself talking
about this and that
oh no did I just laugh too much
or too loud
I feel transparent
can you really see right through me
am I only a fake
a huge mistake in life
tell me
I need to know
'cause the way it's going
it's moving fast
I don't know
how much longer my patience will last
to feel peace, harmony inside this creation of mine
is what I need to finally feel fine
Abandoned
who am I really
can't see it all that clearly
they say I have got this disorder
then they act out off order
leaving me on my own to see
what it's all about with me
relax and feel free
is that why I pay them that fee
to be left in my own confusion
making my vague conclusions
tearing my inside apart
yeah they were so smart
me an obsessive thinker of all days
how on earth will I find my ways
easy for them to go on vacation under the summer sun
here I'm sitting having no fun
Torn
torn
between heart and mind
torn
between light and darkness
torn
between laughter and tears
torn
between past and presence
torn
between defeat and victory
torn
between hopelessness and faith
torn
between today and tomorrow
torn
between myself and others
torn
The Memory
dancing all night long
to the vibrations of this old song
crying a tear or two
I remember- do you?
the time when things were new
when the sky looked even more blue
when the birds were singing in every tree
all we felt- FREE as can be
sat on the grass in silence- hand in hand
summer air caressing our skin, smoother than finest sand
calmness all around
only birds singing, above the ground
filling the mind with soft feather's touch
leaving the unpleasant thoughts tormenting so much
to see them fly away never to be seen again
this was the day- that was then
a memory to keep close to heart, to once again feel free
the hour when nature became a part of you and me
Vulnerable
rusty brain
traces stains
old too soon
in lack of tears
caught by fears
learning to walk all over again
scared of herself
others
her own heart and future days
the book is open
read the chapters never shown to man
words of sorrow pain sadness
black on white
white on black
times been good in days few
rough in larger quantities than able to chew
afraid of tomorrow
all strength she needs to borrow
from you, her and him
feeling weak not standing tall
this is her without her shield
please don't hit her with arrows sharp
she would fall in an instance
wounded at heart
The Dethronement
the night takes over the day retreats
will you still love me when the sun returns
the air is humid hot these summer days
the water of life for thirsty souls
to drink with eager like love from a heart
together no longer alone wandering along
in this smothering heat far from a chilly heart beat
never to give in but continue this battle to win
love is a shelter a castle to endure all weathers
so when the night is king fear no harm
the light will throw him off his throne
to rule all by its own
The Princess & The Prince
now as I go to bed
with many thoughts in my head
I know that there will be a tomorrow
I hope- a day without sorrow
to see the glow in my kid's eyes
in where so much beauty lies
to hear them laughing in joy
drawing pictures, playing with that toy
running around jumping up and down
wearing that princess crown
playing games to win in the end
my love- I to them both send
some days are really rough
you my boy acting tough
but I know it is not who you are
it is the disorder leaving a scar
you my girl is oh so sweet
in the early morning light entering our room
shining with a face already in bloom
tomorrow- another day to be with you
under the sky- ocean blue
Highway
some day
I hope to leave this way
this highway of racing thoughts
speeding- no limits
take no notice of signs up ahead
obsessions in its prime
stop
no- crash and burn
Marshmallow heart
cold hard vindictive loveless
numb heart made of stone
warm soft peaceful loving
marshmallow heart
taking faking lying spying
user
giving sincere trustworthy believer
friend
Through borrowed eyes
you see me- I see you
let me borrow your eyes
I will lend you mine
you hear me- I hear you
let me borrow your ears
I will lend you mine
I need your heart- you need mine
let me borrow your heart
I will lend you mine
to know myself
is to know others
to know myself
is to give
to know myself
is to see you
to know myself
is to hear you
to know myself
is to treasure your heart
talk to me with gentle words
when you see my stains
tell me in a friendly tone
I know- I can never be perfect
but one thing I know
I try each day passing
to be worthy being called your friend
The day when I decided
never to crawl
never to bend
I am me
I won't pretend
take me as I am
or not at all
my heart beating
not to be stepped on ever again
I may be weak
look into my eyes
yes you are right
I am strong too
words can hit like a fist
guess what? you missed!
I am no longer to be used
I am me
free
no one's prisoner
I have just decided
hmm... I am really not that bad
Unknown feeling
something strange is going on
feel it in the air
in my body- every where
what is this sensation
new- unexplored
unexpected
but ooooooh so welcome
please will you stay
today and many days to come
yes I know now
you told me
your name is-
happiness
Hey, Life!
hey, Life!
you had quite a good day today, hah?!
Thank you, for giving me of your hours!
I know you have been treated in a rough way...
I wish time will see to you some more, from now on
I mean hey...! You need some good feeding!
kid's laughter
fresh air
no despair
hey... you- Life! You even made ME smile today!
Life... psst... I kind of like you, after all...
Naked
taking off my pants
turning them inside out
contents from pockets- falling out
revealing
showing
standing naked on the floor
nothing left to hide
nude from head to toe
exposed
looked at
embarrassed
naked
this life of mine
ashamed
hurt
feeling low
now you know
it all
I do not want this
worthless
Slippery
life isn't easy
way too greasy
walking on this slippery road
shoulders carrying this heavy load
you fall
so hard to stand tall
crawling around
wanting to be found
treated with tenderness
to feel togetherness
I hear you my friend
the frustration which makes you bend
lift your head high
to view the summer sky
calmness to fill your chest
let you lay down to rest
Your laughter
your laughter is seldom there
a visit- with us to share
tonight it came to us- a bright surprise
to make my eye-brows rise
to feel for you- in this happy tone
not to laugh alone
you do so much for me
though you're drained- that I see
your humour is as funny as can be
transforming lips to set them free
your laughter is a beautiful sound
lifting your head up, not to view the ground
when the new day shines through our window glass
will I hear your laughter as refreshing as dew on grass?
you deserve that happy morning mood
that day's prelude
laughter rippling, like water murmuring in a well
only time will tell
If only
your life is lonely
a battle field, day and night
struggling alone, but yet with 11 others
that is a hard blow to take
having to watch every step you take
voices from days long gone
still as vivid as back then
hurt but still alive
breathing the air to survive
right now, sleep is not your friend
soon you two will reunite, in the hand of calmness
if I could erase some of the old words spoken
or the rough treatment, which made you feel so broken
I would do it, in the blink of an eye
life is now... yet also history in action
if only time could heal all wounds!
Good night dear friend
good night dear friend
over the ocean I these words send
you are a light shining bright
to glow like the stars in the black night
your heart is a heart made of compassion
I know- because I've been given a huge ration
my friend I sense your pain
pouring through your vein
but today I saw your happiness shining through
I felt a calm happy feeling for you
you deserve to feel free
please know you're loved by me
Julia
Julia
you know me well
you found me hiding in a shell
you gently took me by the hand
to brush away the sand
bruised by raging waters force
you gave me these soothing words of yours
Julia
your life is sometimes oh so rough
you're still standing tough
not the one to give up in any fight
you've taught your eyes to see the light
a woman with many things inside your creation
walking towards your destination
True hope
hey man from UK
hope you feel OK
that night has been kind to you
to make you fight again with a strong spirit true
days are long
in need to belong
to feel hope- to feed the soul
the rope to climb, up from this hole