Hardest ever
in the middle of the night
my brain is taking part in a rough fight
I cannot sleep
all I want to do is weep
lost in my own creation
trying to sort out my every sensation
is this the road given to me?
will it set me free?
only I could find the answer to that
when on this my chair I sat
crying tears and shivering in every body part
and swirling thoughts were haunting my heart
I'm about to lose myself into the ocean cold
hanging onto the last thread to hold
no now is not the time to be a fool
to let feelings rule
I need to find safety before it is too late
to not just sit around and wait
I need to take matters in my own hand
hoping others will be there to understand
because alone I will not succeed
I need my family and friends- yes very much indeed
because many times I will fall
crawling on the pavement feeling oh so small
so you see I need the help from you
to make it through
2/1-08 2.30 am
Night time
voices
noises
not your choices
sadness
madness
afraid of happiness
torn
forlorn
longing to get reborn
silent
distant
in life for rent
misplaced
disgraced
many a fear faced
shoved
loved
heard by a listener above
sorrow
tomorrow
sunshine to borrow
be
free
one day you will see
friend
bend
helping hand send
you
view
a day brand new
7/1-08
Time circle
as the day came
with feelings of shame
life would never ever be the same
as the night arrived
with emotions revived
renewed - they all survived
as the hours went by
loneliness in a silent cry
consumed by one word... why?
as the moon came to shine
expressions to decline
not at all feeling fine
as the stars spread their light
speaking with a voice of fright
searching for love's delight
as the sun emerged in the sky
in crucial need of a reply
air exhaled with a loud sigh
as the time is constantly running
the soul awaits the brightening
leading straight to the opening
8/1-08
Weak
down I am falling
I can hear depression calling
it knows my name
after old days just the same
weak and out of power
like a faded dead flower
I try to stay away from pain
find the ways to stay sane
the tears are no strangers to me
if only they could set me free
for now their drops are dry
all I feel is numbness without a cry
20/1-08
Dart in heart
poetic words gone away
in need for them to stay
hurt inside a wounded heart
hit by a sharp dart
no explanation to this pain
it is just there to remain
please - embrace me keep me warm
help me ride out this storm
hiding in a shell
I think you know it well
afraid of the light
because it might not be right
to believe in words of love and care
one day - I hope I dare
27/1-08
Split image
broken glass
mirror's reflection
face in hiding
thoughts colliding
sun bright
internal fight
distant voices
disturbing noises
here, there
and everywhere
28/1-08
Words?
the words are no longer the same
they all seem far too lame
no way to ever express
how I feel in this internal distress
I can hear my own mental sigh
trying hard to keep my eyes dry
behind a wall of crashing emotions
feeling sick of all accusations
coming from the outside
as well as from my own brain's lethal joyride
10/2-08
If love was…
if love was a flower
a colourful visible power
would you pick it to share with me
if love was an ocean
caressing the human body with its motion
would you take me to the shore
if love was a dance
rhythmic like an ongoing trance
would you hold me tight on the dance floor
if love was a vision
luring the eyes into submission
would you let me see
if love was a puffed up soft summer cloud
smoothly swaying making the sky feel proud
would you kiss me tenderly breathing the summer breeze
13/2-08
Frozen flowers
in the morning glory everything is new
the air in the sky and the glittering dew
hours in sleeping mode to refresh
the human being - heart, mind and flesh
this is my morning story as I sit here all alone
just got inside from the winter cold - freezing to the bone
as I look out through my window
the sun shows its magnificent glow
everything is still... silently coming awake
the frozen flowers greeted us with colours by mistake
now they are standing there fighting for survival
depending on yet another revival
time has gone out of our hand
interrupted by those who do not understand
thoughtless or greedy - using everything they can
the flowers of Earth owned by God - not man
a gift... a home... a precious garden of love
rain, snow and sunshine sprinkled from above
the perfect combination of elements provided for you and me
spreading joy and warmth - teaching us things we can not see
one day soon - a change will take place
our future be saved on Earth in space
the flowers blooming in springtime like before
no more worries anymore
15/2-08
Sigh
silence - I embrace thee
thou art my wish of today
numbness... heavy footsteps
I fall under thee
21/2-08
My house
lost in my own house of walls and ceiling
trying to find my room and happiness stealing
tight tight everything is closing in on me
I am left astray... alone and longing to flee
thick is the window glass separating my being from the outside
a vision... a mirage... still I cannot hide
my eyes they see
but my brain refuses to agree
leaving a hole of confusion and distress
in a life far far from success
5/3-08
I fall…
if I turn around and look you straight in the eye
I know I will for sure drown with a deep sigh
passion through the mirror of our souls
as we keep on playing our lead roles
emotions crashing distinctly against the walls of my heart
caused by the sight of a sphere of precious art
I fall... fall... fall... in love all over again
then quickly I disappear back into my den
wounded by my own being - like a bleeding prey
crying my lonely tears as I fight to breakaway
9/3-08
Sick of…
so sick of being me
never ever able to flee
get away from my own creation
instead I'm chained without redemption
throwing myself into the deep ocean
trying to drown my unwanted emotion
somehow it floats up to the surface again
over and over... never to give up... like an headless running hen
not ready to obey no matter what I say
no no... forcing me to walk its way
still I wake up every morning after a short night
after dreams haunting my mind and soul... yet again... to fight
what if I can't do it no more
if I am sick of this battle... exhausted all the way into the core
then how do I keep on for much longer?
my body is tired and my heart is still... as I wish I was stronger
14/3-08
STOP!
one single drop
STOP!
one more
then it begins to pour
STOP!
the floodgate open wide
no where to turn to avoid this ride
STOP!
forced into the depth down under
currents ripping and tearing - no room for a wonder
STOP!
pulled out to sea
struggling to break free
STOP!
cold water filling my lungs so fast
how much longer will this last?
STOP!
and it stopped...
16/3-08
The Sentence
waking up in the early morning hour
not exactly jumping into the shower
the night was long but yet too short
in The Kingdom of Nightmares... judged in court
the punishment is sleeplessness
causing both body and mind deep distress
thoughts swirling around like a never ending story
the sun is up... I try to see its shiny glory
1 / 4-08
Future
sitting here this grey and gloomy day
awaiting the future when I can say:
- I am not sick in any way!
with true hope I pray
knowing all this misery is not to stay
if my life would be like this for always
who would I be under the burning sun rays?
no one… tiny and small
faded like a rose hanging on the wall
the colour would be long gone
looking like the ugly duckling who was a swan
I rest my many thoughts in the power of his hand
in deep faith that he will show us a future ever so grand
day by day… hour by hour… minute by minute
worries and sorrow... ready to hit
the original purpose so different from this
I will force my feet to keep walking towards eternal bliss
some days are heavy like a cloud filled with rain
all I want to do is complain
others are like a walk in the flowery park
a friendly soothing atmosphere to retrieve that certain spark
together with the ones I love and hold close to my heart
I will continue my journey towards a new refreshing start
6/4-08
Serial
life
on the edge of a knife
cutting deep
beginning to weep
hurting material
circles on water... a serial
tears of a clown
a princess without a crown
new day yet all the same
expiring burning flame
19/4-08
The wonder of wonders
sleep with sunshine on your pillow
in the springtime holding soft willow
soothing hours in the flowery bed
grab a hold of that shovel in the shed
dig a hole in the refreshed and damp soil
say me what can this moment spoil?
a heavy rain drowning your feet
muddy and wet as Earth and water meet
is that really so bad or maybe more like a special treat
to feel alive in connection to the ground in under
the sensation of reality - life's true wonder
24/4-08
Hurt no more
hurt is a pain to cut deep inside
make the human being want to hide
a word can set the world on fire
bring us down to lose all the desire
flat on ground in deep painful thinking
loneliness hitting hard as we begin sinking
search inside that heart of yours
to find a new way leading us to the sea shores
let us breath in the breeze of salty water
make the distance between our creations shorter and shorter
hand in hand
walking in harmony on dry land
healed by compassion, forgiveness and love
underneath the blue sky above
24/4-08
Please…
when you do not know who you are
how can you ever heal that nasty scar?!
the gapping wound of confusion
in constant search for the right solution
salt spread in the cut so deep
nothing left than to weep
the soul lost in its own flesh and blood
bare knees crawling in the wet sticky mud
please show me the way out of all this
into a new dimension of total bliss
28/4-08
Inner beauty
a lady fare
beyond compare
a rose garden in her heart of gold
one wish for it to hold
in the palm of my hand
the purity of the white ocean sand
if you listen you can hear her silent song
as her being wishes to belong
dressed in chains from escaped days
hurt by time in many a ways
yet wearing silver threads around her waist
to let memories walk in shame to a hidden place
a tear filled with emotion and passion so rich
like the spring flower decorating a damp ditch
if you look into her eyes you will find
a woman gentle and kind
unable to open up the closed door to her soul
carefully view her inner beauty through the tiny keyhole
blinded by a light of love and compassion
wisdom and soothing words in a wealthy ration
to know her is to hold a treasure of diamonds and valuable stones
pleasurable music in a harmony of tones
like the sensation of the warm summer air
gently swirling around in your hair
29/4-08
The Moon
your words touch me deep inside
creating a wave of emotions unable to hide
if I am a star then you are the moon
spreading its light
in the still of the night
darkness to be eaten up by a glorious candle flame
make the trees hide behind their leaves in shame
the moon in the sky
as the owl fly
high up on mighty wings
two precious things
if I could touch the moon with my bare hands tonight
I would feel electricity running through me - as I fight
fight to break free from this haunting body of universe
even so... never ever in wish to move in reverse
29/4-08
Faces
two invisible faces merged into one
nr 1 hiding behind steel bars
nr 2 strong as an ox breaking free from its chain
they meet in a room of silence in noise
arguing in the dark under a leaking ceiling
tears and loud cries cutting the air into a million tiny pieces
enjoyment and laughter echoing through the wide open doors
nr 1 standing ever so small pressed against the prison wall
nr 2 satisfying its curiosity in a row of adventures
dark and bright
day and night
awaiting the final battle
the outcome is yet to see
desperately in need of a nr 3 - a "middle ME"
2/5-08
The Volcano
anger and rage bubbling up
squirting like a bursting volcano
merciless heat and thick dust smothering the air
streaming… pouring fast as the rapid in springtime
roaring… killing ones hearing with a noise beyond believe
cooking its red in a seemingly never ending session
out with the tension - the pressure to over power everything in its way
ashes covering the glowing blood telling the story of nature's fury
a pause of silence preparing for a new lethal shower
the manifestation of the power of Earth
4/5-08
The Wind
with tears in my eyes I feel for you brave man
let me be there in your room to share the feelings of despair
who are we under the sun - once life has begun?
like the wind we come and like the same we go
so let the wind blow in full action
to view all the beauty of life's attraction
here and now with full force
let the vivid air in movement touch each other's souls
hand in hand fly around in harmony like the soft summer breeze
sometimes stronger
sometimes less
the future will be there even if the wind turns all calm
a new beginning He holds in his mighty palm
the wind... in full strength or sleeping mode
it will always return with its different faces
10/5-08
In my heart
to drink thy love
in hunger for thy kisses
to call out thy name
view thy creation in rays of light
embrace me with arms of compassion
because thou art in my heart
for all eternity
12/5-08
Over and over…
who am I in sin
is this my battle to win
to be whole and complete
that invisible day to greet
will I lose myself over and over
like the waves crushing against the cliffs of Dover
falling falling falling
is this my true calling
been hit to the dark cold soil
in deepest turmoil
once again... and again... and again
and then???
25/5-08
Low battery warning
power low
movement slow
lights are faded
totally jaded
one more minute
final drop of energy and that is it
time to trade me in
cause I can no longer be within
this life has passed
recharge me fast
31/5-08
The Hunted
sobbing with my forehead buried in the palm of my hand
time goes and heavy tears they keep on falling
heart shrinking due to the pressure of emotions never relieved
one more day... one more night...
always "one more"... even though it hurts into my very core
hiding from my very own creation... my flesh... my soul
no way out of this nightmare... no door... no window...
trapped like a prey ready to get killed by powerful merciless jaws
eaten... to never be seen again
3/6-08
Always the girl
once upon a time there was a girl
who got caught in life's swirl
nowhere to run
not at all fun
she saw the things no other could see
they made it even harder for her to break free
time passed so slowly for this sad soul of a young woman
tormented in turmoil she crawled deeper and deeper into her den
alone in the darkness she sat crying tears for no one to know
because she had been hit with blow after blow
the old wound still visible and the scar almost as sharp as right after the cut
once and for all the door was shut
14/6-08
I want to give up
I want to give up
not to stand up
give me a reason to walk
a purpose to talk
I want to give up
not to stand up
so tired of this fight
where is life's delight?
I want to give up
not to stand up
alone with my thoughts I sink
thirsty for something refreshing to drink
I want to give up
not to stand up
my tears heavy and transparent
in deep need of love like an infant
I want to give up
not to stand up
see my face in sadness
view my soul in distress
I want to give up
not to stand up
invisible in my creation of weakness
layer after layer to undress
I want to give up
The Pen
the pen in your hand
a journey to fantasy land
flowers and gardens in preciousness
with words you find the way to undress
you use me
you abuse me
hold me too tight
write about the constant fight
letters upon letters filled with tears and cries
sometimes I scream due to all the lies
you use me
you abuse me
sharp and refreshed I let you write some more
write write and write until you have eaten up my core
silence is not my friend
the end
23/6-08
Dreamland
I want to lay myself down on a flowery bed
roses… orange, white, pink, yellow and red
bury my nose in the fragrance of summertime
as I listen to your soft voice whispering words of rhyme
slowly I fall asleep in the arms of pure love
accompanied by birds singing on tree branches up above
Dreamland - come take me for a ride on your rainbow
the dancing deer by the waters running high and low
bathing without a single thread
no fear… nothing to dread
free as the hawk flying high amongst the mighty trees
with its sharp vision everything it sees
you tiny little mouse run fast… even faster!!!
or else this will become your final disaster
still - nature is true - so let it be…!
to survive might not always be to flee
wild horses drinking by the riverside
long manes… their eyes to hide
thirsty for life - running scared
no boundaries - not to be shared
a herd in its own pace
they all run like the wind into the horizon
nothing to leave behind - to abandon
Dreamland - come back to find me soon again, I beg of you!
to ease my burden… to look beyond what is true
23/6-08
Changes
funny how life plays tricks on you
one day happy the next blue
the golden love in your hand
suddenly turns to sand
smiling face in joyfulness
crying tears in hopelessness
changes ruling it all
this hour free… the next up against the wall
grab a hold of what you have right now
tomorrow you might get forced to your knees to bow
24/6-08
Struck by depression…
eat me
defeat me
then spit me out
step on me as I scream and shout
drag me by my hair
my skin ripped and the smell of blood spread into the air
leave me to bleed from head to toe
after you've struck me with a final blow
someone walking along on the cobblestone ground
hearing a smothered sound
turning to the left to see what it is
could hardly be much more red than this
a big stain of life's juice
a figure lying there covered with wounds and bruise after bruise
a hand slowly reaches out to this human being
sighing in pain and eyes just about seeing
helplessness in both voice and look
alone in emptiness like the cover to an unwritten book
hand meet hand in a moment of silence
safety and relief in a new sense
carried on strong shoulders to a house nearby
treated with kindness during hurt and cry
food on the table to soothe both stomach and mind
smiling faces and friendly voices to leave sorrow behind
27/6-08
On my own
on my own
always walked alone
even together with you
wondering if my identity was true
who was I?
who am I now?
on my own
on every stepping stone
behind an invisible wall
I wandered around feeling so small
on my own
all the other birds had flown
different - not like you and you
trying to find my way through
longing for you to understand
the things I hold clear in my mind
do I scare you with my honest word?
do they make you want to run away along with the herd?
flee head over heal
not to feel what I feel
on my own
yes - I moan
why me?
I can't see…
29/6-08
What is it?!
can't shake this feeling
empty in loneliness
my head is heavy
my feet are too
I want to let it out
with a scream and shout
but what it is inside
I don't know
tension building up
I'm ready to crack
why won't it go away?
what is it?
I can't touch this feeling
it's just there
haunting me day and night
killing my every ambition
fooling my every try to stand up
what is it behind that corner?
tears are pushing but they won't show their faces
my chest is tense
my heart so sad
get me out of here!
30/6-08
Thank you…
hurt still lives inside my soul
burning like hot coal
afraid of feeling
scared of revealing
ever so gently… you took me by the hand
led me to sit down on a bench in a calm peaceful land
your eyes showed love and care
I felt something rare
a slowly growing will to tell
to invite you inside my shell
memories painted haunting images in the air
I could suddenly recall all the despair
your voice talked to me with a soothing tone
oh how it made me feel less alone
then I could no longer keep them behind closed doors
I told you about some of the reasons… the ancient source
you listened carefully to the words coming from my tongue
as I climbed downwards on the ladder of history… rung by rung
shaking… trembling… I looked down
my face in a tormented frown
you kept me from falling
as the past was calling
my heart in a knot and my throat dry
anxiety eating at my mind as I began to cry
the first to know
about… the words, the shouting, the mental blow
I do not know my own creation from day to day
but you always have something comforting to say
I might not always have been the nicest one on your own rocky road
yet you have been there offering to help me carry my load
friends like you… not easy to find
a shelter in the raging storm to leave the pouring rain behind
6/7-08
Sleep searching
in the hot humid night
the crickets playing music to my ear
the hours of daylight fled by time
darkness rolled in covering sea and land
the clouds no longer to be seen
figures hiding their faces amongst the shadows
summer time wrapping its warm blanket around my creation
tossing and turning as frustration builds up
sleep is far away from my body and mind
begging and pleading for a journey of dreams
to find calmness on my pillow soothing my tired soul
11/7-08
Wings without feathers
moonlight playing in the midnight sky
silence broken by a haunting cry
cutting through bone and marrow
the sound of tremendous sorrow
trying to fly with her wounded wings
crashing to the ground as she swings
no one can help her now when the time is here
naked with burnt feathers under the moonshine clear
on bare knees defeated to view her own face in the puddle
far far away from any soothing cuddle
moaning in despair... alone in night and pouring rain
her heart beating but her brain going insane
who knows her name
it doesn't matter... all the same
18/7-08
New eyes
like a caressing wind
his hand touched her face
creating moments of glory
in laughter and smiles
with blue eyes mild and reborn
his vision clear to finally see
the hidden emotions long gone
emerged from the depth of his soul
with words of sweetest honey
he searched his way into her heart
the voice he just discovered within
spoke a language he never knew
20/7-08
The one behind
Shadow is my name…
walking on this Earth in shame
always the one behind
trying to find
the reasons to live
to love give
a part of another
I smother
screaming many a word
not to be heard
travel to the equator
then I would feel greater
merged into one
under the gazing sun
Shadow is my name…
the one to take the blame
but no - I have had enough
of this life so rough
my outside might be gloomy and grey
even so I will stay
my inside hidden through out the years
a cheetah wild - running fast with no fears
look into the peek hole and there I am
Shadow is my name...
23/7-08
Images
visions inside my head
keeps me from the sleep in bed
fighting the images so vivid and real
every minute they steal
tight lungs with air heavy and thick
am I just another brick
in the game of a fool
trying to play by every rule
never enough to cut loose
walk the road that I choose
pictures of a woman lost inside
behind a tree trying to hide
left in an emotional square
alone with scare
30/7-08
Silence
silence is golden... so they say
I agree in more than one way
not to speak before you think
the wrong words can make you sink
silence is golden... so the say
I agree in more than one way
thoughts spinning inside of your mind
a remedy to make them stop... that is what I'm trying to find
silence is golden... so they say
I agree in more than one way
the chaos of today's life
creating noise that cuts like a knife
silence is golden... so they say
I agree in more than one way
listen to the silence and hear it talking to you
feel the emotions you never knew as true
silence is golden... so they say
I agree in more than one way
sleep through the quiet night
in peace under the moonlight
silence is golden... so they say
I agree in more than one way
selective silence to really hear
the wind, the birds, the waves... so clear
31/7-08
A touch of life…
tears falling down
raindrops dripping from the leaf
thoughts colliding
thunderbolts crashing
heart in rhythm beating
birds singing a crescendo of tones
mind drowning in the quicksand
greasy oil on the pelican out at sea
burning desires and lust
heat of summer and flames on grass
running fast through the things unseen
termites eating with blind eager
blood in veins of love and hurt
river floating in nature's bed around the clock
eyelids closing in the late hour
darkness rolling in as the sun says good night
5/8-08
Connection
be silent or talk
doesn't matter... you're still with me on my walk
in sunshine or in rain
of our friendship I will never complain
I feel your heart beating and your mind thinking
the love of friends we keep on drinking
you're a part of my life from dusk until dawn
as through the hurtful days we've known
together we stand up again to fight it all
united in a force not at all small
tomorrow might be gloomy and grey
but the bright light of our companionship will forever stay
6/8-08
It is ok…
leave me this way
after all… it is ok
I am used to this treatment
from former days spent
I am not much on this planet Earth
never were... ever since birth
throw my love away into the raging sea
it is only a part of me
if I am so strange as you make me feel
we had better stop this running wheel
put my nose into the ground
laughing faces all around
pounding ache inside my brain
who am I to complain?
6/8-08
Ready Steady Go
exhausted and without glow
waking up in the morning - Ready Steady Go
yesterday today and tomorrow
always - Ready Steady Go
seeing the outside world through my window
pulling myself together - Ready Steady Go
nightmares hitting blow after blow
sleep running away - Ready Steady Go
walking on the sidewalk fast or slow
my mind fully awake - Ready Steady Go
sad eyes of blue - anxiety continues to grow
arms of love wide open - Ready Steady Go
19/8-08
Lost direction
as the night rolls in
all thoughts begin to spin
faster and faster
heading for disaster
tired and worn out
not really knowing what it's all about
who am I to make a difference?
to tear down this ancient picket fence
27/8-08
Maybe tomorrow
oh if I could feel peace
in a place of relief
rejoice in love and harmony
instead of wandering around in agony
oh if only a gentle wind would touch my hair
sooth my soul to lead me out of despair
with a smiling refreshed face
sad miserable features to erase
oh if life could become my friend
bouquets of flowers I would send
greet every new morning and the night time too
standing under the magnificent sky in midnight blue
oh if I could give all the love I feel
the chambers of my heart I would reveal
carry you when you feel tired and weak
listening to the water smoothly bubbling in the creek
oh if I could only be me
set myself free
show you who I am inside
in you I would confide
oh if tomorrow was the day
time for all sorrow to get washed away
a new path to walk on hand in hand
into the promised land
1/9-08
Me and you… together
look into my eyes
see the things no one else can see
listen to my voice
hear the words never spoken
touch my bare skin
feel my warmth with the palm of your hand
walk beside me
_________________________
let me look into your eyes
see the things only I can see
listen to your voice
hear the words only for me
touch your bare skin
feel your warmth with the palm of my hand
walk beside you
_________________________
let us look into each others eyes
see the things only for us to see
listen to each others voice
hear the words only for me and you
touch each others bare skin
feel each others warmth with the palm of our hands
walk beside each other
7/9-08
Hope for reunion
once upon a time
there were two friends
they talked about all and nothing
their path split into two
one walked to the left
the other wandered to the right
when and how would they ever meet again
if the heart of a friend is there
there will be no worries
because the heart will lead them back together again
embracing each other
they will be together under the sun... the moon...and the stars
wandering hand in hand again...
talking about all and nothing
8/9-08
Time is running out
surrounded by eating sorrow
losing my hope in tomorrow
love is not all to solve misery
the solution remains a mystery
waking up each morning in a daze
a soul fallen from grace
broken dreams and emotional disaster
frustration is the master
eyes burning after the heavy rain
heart bleeding leaving a distinct stain
one more day to go on
or has human limitation won?
18/9-08
Broken
with a strike and a blow
strong furious storm hitting the window
broken pieces of glass covering the floor
all the way to the door
walking bare foot on a carpet of rage
numb... not feeling anything at this stage
pounding headache crashing against the walls of my brain
the final countdown... before the everlasting rain
18/9-08
Changes
the shouting alarm
a bite in the arm
twisting and turning around
to find steady ground
heal the soul of a sinner
thick air getting thinner
love is not enough
in a world gone rough
a seeker with a flashlight
searching for life's delight
4/10-08
The Missing Rainbow
where did they all go?
the happy days... I miss them so
always been a thinker and maybe a fool
coping with my own mental tool
now I am nothing but a tired dreamer
yes - a midnight screamer
tomorrow is nearby
as I sit and wonder... why?
how to face the day... I do not know
wishing for a colourful place beneath the rainbow
hold me in your arms a little longer
please... to make me feel stronger
I cannot walk this winding road all alone
reality cutting deep all the way into the bone
the night time is not my friend to have and to hold
not my hours to feel bold
do not leave my side... I beg of you
I need you to resurrect me like the refreshing morning dew
18-19/10-08
Time standing still
water in a gently running stream
from the blue sky shines the sunbeam
fresh air with tiny tiny drops to touch your face
untouched beauty this precious place
hear the sounds of musical water all around
feel the soft wet grass covering the ground
float away in thoughts made of peace and harmony
drowning all misery and haunting agony
lift your arms high up in the air
feel release from all despair
let your eyes go into panorama vision
to merge into total transition
this moment is yours to breathe with eagerness
nature's way of healing internal stress
stay a little while longer
consume this gift to make you stronger
with bare feet wandering along on velvet sand
the surface of the water embracing your hand
pouring through your fingers to rain back down
to reunite with the source - the waterfall's crown
20/10-08
status quo ante bellum
crying and flying
tossing and turning
crashing and burning
noooo - with a shout
what is this all about?!!!!!!!!!!
drowning in raging sea
hug me and kiss me!!!!
rescue my poor soul
play the lead role
no life spender
in agony - I surrender!
cry just a little longer
future to make stronger
faith in renewed hope
run away - elope
find green patches of glory
creating a never ending story
visions to hold in mind and heart
healing... yet tearing apart
today and tomorrow... looking the same
crawling around in shame
a burning desire
never to expire
one way road with no short cuts
no ifs or buts
stripped words into the centre
disbelief to enter
still seeking to fly free
not for me
2/11-08
Poetry 2008
Copyright © N.M.
