Distress
wrap your arms around me
calm my internal raging sea
block out what lies ahead
as my voice is dead
sinking into the deep
eyelids locked not to weep
nails digging into the palm
imprisoned soul in a merciless realm
4/1-10
Flat
lost hold of that rope
sliding on my butt down the slope
feel every rock tearing my trousers
and glittering snowflakes scatters
ending up in a bundle of pain
lying on the cold ice
hurt legs unwilling to rise
4/1-10
Life's Slippery Slope
on the slippery slope...
slithery soap
on the slippery slope...
how do you cope?
on the slippery slope...
need a safety rope
on the slippery slope...
hold onto hope
4/1-10
The whiteness of it all
falling down from the pinkish sky
like light feathers they fly
first a thin layer of white and cold
then a coating of quilts and pillows to behold
the glittering miracle of the silver flake
as the sun shines at daybreak
chilly winds and snow dancing in a swirl
time for joy to embrace both boy and girl
throwing snowballs at your friend
all soaked and freezing in the end
smiling faces drinking hot chocolate
never mind that they are totally wet
going inside to warm up their small stiff toes
cuddle up in blankets on the couch... and outside... it still snows
28/1-10
I feel you
as the sadness washes over you with force
fog rolls in to cover your ocean blue shiny eyes
your voice weakens in a broken melody of tears
then my hearts sinks to the depth of the sea
contracts into a bundle of smothered love
my eyelids loses their strength as they close
drops of salty water wanders down my face
the inside of my chest feels your pain in static mode
as you smile with lips pretty and pinkish red
your pupils changes to show the moment of joy
and your tongue speaks a language of magic in glory
then my soul sings a duet with yours
l stretch out my arms to embrace time
giggles and laughter sugar coats our world
suddenly the birds are singing just for us
our ears soothed and lungs breathing freely
30/1-10
Not alone… dear friend…
you crawl with bleeding knees
leaving stains of blood on the ground
I carefully follow your tracks
along side with you I turn my head
eyes meet eyes in sadness
teardrops down our faces
hand reaches hand
together we seek in mutual understanding
3/3-10
Cry me to sleep
why won't you give me your tears
along with all your fears
let me hold them for you
until the night is through
dry your face from drowning
erase your mouth's frowning
embrace your soul completely
as you drift away in dreams to meet me
6/3-10
Soothe
when tears comes down your face
and life is like the darkest maze
then please know my hand is yours
together we will find the sea shores
the sun will reach the weary heart
as the morning light does its part
22/3-10
The Taste of Nothingness
my tears they come... my tears they go
heart's anxiety continues to grow
I have been thrown into pain
no point to complain
have been sucked out and drained from head to toe
left with the dirty faded light from my window
my hands are tied behind my back
no fingers to seek the way through the black
hit me or block me out
makes no difference to this silent shout
emotions camouflaged in numbness
eating me up with furious eagerness
let go of my hand will you please
can't find the relief in peace
I am better left alone
accompanied by my smothered moan
27/3-10
Bottomless Waters
paralyzed
sinking sinking
down down
into the deep
no air
total despair
eyes closing
lungs collapsing
heavy
no ending
descending
down
down
pressure high
resistance low
down I go
down
down
down
26/4-10
Clearly through the fog
feelings... sensations
verbal exclamations
love inside a bubble
avoiding trouble
feeding day and night
still out of sight
please walk with me
our love to see
30/5-10
One summer morning
morning walk in the woods on our own
me, my dog and mobile phone
to detect the splendour of nature
in its summertime feature
capture the beauty beyond compare
bring with me pictures to share
green, orange, yellow and blue
colours of magnificence true
creation pleasing
as much as teasing
feeding the eyes on this noble feast
astonishment and humbleness to say the least
the morning fresh carpet of dew
makes everything look brand new
clear blue sky with gently smeared out white clouds
ants working with undying eagerness in large crowds
birds singing their tunes louder and louder
greeting the dawn prouder and prouder
eternal love from an outstanding creator
blessed are the spectator
9/6-10
I will…
through the fire burning holes in the wooden frames of time
I will carry you to safety
through the raging storms erasing the calmness out to sea
I will swim with you to find dry land
through the doubts of a mind in turmoil broken into pieces
I will show you the light hidden in the fog
through the night of dreams tormenting every corner of your soul
I will sleep beside you and hold you close
through the laughter and giggles coming from your smiling face
I will feel the freedom cover our existence in togetherness
through the rays of sun your beauty embraces my mind
I will whisper into your ear the words of love
through the black and white - dark and bright
I will walk by your side in loyalty
10/6-10
New day
a new day
the sun is out
birds are singing
music swinging
a new day
please pass quickly
cause I feel sickly
thoughts flying
my soul is dying
19/6-10
Intense pondering
who are you?
who am I?
I sit and wonder why?
you are there
I am here
still inside the same atmosphere
hit me hard!
wake me up!
lost in confusion
this is my resolution
take me home tonight!...
to feel love in all its might
19/6-10
Little bird
a wooden bench
tired feet on a gravel path
meets a tiny bird on a stroll
new to this world it knows no fear
picking on the ground in peace
the human eye views this scene
as a smile spreads all over the face
a refreshed soul continues her day
20/6-10
Bodily
my heart is screaming
aching and whimpering
my mind is bleeding
leaking and drowning
my arms are weighing
numbed and dangling
my legs are sleeping
tired and dull
my feet are searching
seeking and groping
my fingers touching
slowly and carefully
my eyes are crying
burning and quenching
my ears are deafened
wounded and worn
my body is alive
struggling and suffering
26/6-10 translated from Swedish
Even if...
Even if you can not see the light, that does not mean there is no light
Even if your heart is broken, it does not mean it is forever broken
Even if you feel lost in life, it does not mean that life is not there to find you
Even if your mind is spinning around, it does not mean it will never find peace
Even if you do not feel like speaking, that does not mean we can not hear you
Even if you feel like letting go, that does not mean we will let you
Even if you in your darkest hour feel out of hope, that does not mean we have given up on you
Even if you do not believe in yourself, that does not mean we have lost our faith in you
first written 23/1-06 edited 10/7-10
Listen with your heart
silence can talk with no words...
words can talk in silence...
11/7-10
Invisible heart
you hurt me
and you did not even see
you said you were sorry
only to set yourself free
you wrote your words
with frozen ink
I meant nothing to you
as you pushed me down
you stood there in your ego
witnessing our friendship fade away
until it had lost all its glow
23/7-10
Until we meet again...
old man of an extraordinary gentle kind
in your lifetime you touched many a heart
this day we all miss you - as we stand here left behind
awaiting the future when friends will never part
24/7-10
The Corner
roll over
play dead
no words
they leave
crawl to
a corner
curl up
disappear
1/8-10
Glorious
take my hand
lead me to The Portal of Peace
open the golden door
guide my steps
along the shiny dewy grass
reflect your own creation
see with eyes of an eagle
breathe the air of pureness
fly away with wings of silvery feathers
to the cupola high above
empty skies blue and gentle
the glowing star to warm your soul
soar on The Winds of Eden
land your feet to rest
on a branch of an ancient oak
'Freedom' will be your name
reborn to live life
in a new dimension
1/8-10
Agitation
exploding emotion
haunting notion
let me out
want to scream and shout
skin too tight
nerves putting up a fight
itchy
achy
where do I belong
who knows my song
lost and found
still flat on the ground
18/8-10
Heart Whispers
my heart whispers but my tongue stays mute
in faded silence I thee salute
my words unheard by ears mercilessly deaf
forced into erasion of every single clef
left with nothing more than a dying love song
I stand seeking where to belong
20/8-10
Caged feet
if you do not see today
when will you ever
time does not stand still
nor does the feet
with shoes too small
blisters hurting every toe
come ease the pain
barefoot on the cold wet grass
throw away the torn soles...
leather and shoe laces
free the wanderer once and for all
10/9-10
Hand grenade words
duck!
watch out!
hand grenade
target hit!
injured civilian
bleeding heavily
13/9-10
The House
foundation on the ground
walls attached
cracking sound
what's the catch?
no nails
only water based glue
it all fails
and falls into
when the rain hits the wood
and soaks it through
now where it once stood
nothing left and no one to sue
14/9-10
True illusions
seeking the glorious tranquillity
discovering the profane insanity
rising to view the blueness
defeated in loneliness
10/10-10
Frozen timeline
hear the silence
listen to the distance
gone is the summer swallow
leaving the skies hollow
love is nowhere to be found
only a muddy puddle on the ground
the gentle breeze has fled the scene
golden smiles remains unseen
12/10-10
Old friend
the strings on my guitar
they used to take me far
now they are all broken
no more melodious love token
silent body in this mental fall
hanging dusty on the wall
13/10-10
A clown in mutiny
my nose is red
the audience I dread
my face wears a smile
tears would ruin my style
I stumble and I fall
not really funny at all
faking it through the hour
losing more and more power
the laughter begins to fade
in this tragic comedy masquerade
throw out the clown!
no room for reality in a frown
13/10-10
Trust
it is all about trust
not the truth you adjust
lies creates barbed wire
leaves open wounds on fire
pure words of the heart
will unite instead of tearing apart
15/10-10
Tears
tears they come falling
calling
tears they come hurting
squirting
tears they come burning
returning
tears they come alerting
bursting
tears they come arresting
testing
tears they come frowning
drowning
22/10-10
Catch-22
how do you stop your world from shaking?
when your heart is breaking
where are you to find your power?
as the sun descends in the evening hour
when the moonlit night is holding your mind captive
making sleep and harmony unreceptive
when the sand of the hourglass is running out
and lingering obsessions are still roaming about
you listen for the sound of tranquility
to guide your wounded soul to clarity
yet another lost chance to rejuvenate
merely an opening for new thoughts to conflate
while the blood still floats in your veins
life sustains
26/10-2010
Metamorphosis
the wind heavy and cold
as autumn grows bold
raindrops falling down
dressing Earth in a transparent gown
colourful leaves swirling in the air
the fled light leading into despair
the skies turn pink and gray
virgin snowflakes coming our way
feathery they sway from above
descending one after the other creating winter love
this thick glittery quilt of magnificence
a landscape of pure fresh excellence
1/11-2010
Moments
when the love for you entered my heart
enchanting tones began to sing off the chart
when your eyes looked into mine
glory held my soul divine
when the morning hour met our tears
the rays of sun dried them along with the fears
when your fingers softly touched my face
I was taken to a heavenly place
when our arms embraced the originality
our lungs breathed simultaneously
4/11-10
Imprisonment
crying the smothered tears forcefully bubbling up from an internal well
singing in devastation the sharp tones emerging from the depth of a cave
sleeping an uneven sleep through the nightmares of a storm raged sea
awakening in the fog of the lingering moonlight spreading its final glow
sensing the heaviness of flesh and bone held captive by a drowning sadness
striking the string of desperation as the feet reaches the morning cold floor
11/11-2010
please... please hold me
if only you would dance with me
take me in your arms and hold me
I long for your embrace in the night
please... come make me whole
dry the tears from my pillow
if only I could feel your touch
it would soothe so much
22/11-10
Why dream?
at bedtime when you close your eyes
and all the stars sparkles in the skies
the moonlight spreads its veil
towards the land of dreams you set a sail
listening to the sound of the humble wind
only a few more breaths and you are pinned
rocked to sleep on an ancient boat
upon waves of dreams you float
further and further out on the glittery open sea
carried by the visions of you and me
embracing each other with our heads on the softest pillow
gently touching with fingertips as were they of willow
no room for tears in a dimension of calmness and serenity
if only this dream could become the pure and true reality
may you dream a bit longer
as the imagery grows stronger and stronger
when dawn arrives in its morning suit
you will hear your heart singing a dream's tribute
23/11-10
Tell me… please
when you lie to me
you lie to yourself
when you hurt my heart
you hurt your own
in silence you walk
if only you would talk
open your mind
for me to find
your door - you close
and you lock in front of my nose
I know I am not perfect
but where is the gentle care and respect?
in numbness I am suffocating
tell me… is there any use fighting?
28/11-10
The Road
your road so dark and cold
tired feet on a one way street
a soul in despair gasping for air
let me walk beside you
until the morning light arrives
to make it all brand new
29/11-10
Morning joy
veins of wood in a kitchen table
staring eyes
merging lines
distorted vision
sharp light in the ceiling
revealing shadows
heavy head
crying soul
14/12-10
Feel The Invisible
in a house full of people
still alone to the core
no wish to go on
in the midnight hour
shadows comes out
to chase the light away
in a bed gone hard
slumber mercilessly seeking
longing to find peace at mind
in the reflection of the table lamp
you see images on the wall
formations playing a cruel game
in all the destruction
suddenly sleep strikes
you feel no more
in the crack of dawn
your eyes are red and burning
a new day... you do not want to know
across the ocean
I feel your pain
and I hear your smothered cries
desperately hoping
life will save you once again
tears floating and eyelids closing
hold on!
my hand is in yours
feel the invisible!
in a house full of people
but never alone at heart
14/12-10
Please...
please do not leave!
use my ears
let me walk with you through your fears
please do not give up!
hold on tight
to find your way through the darkest night
please do not let go!
keep the faith inside of your heart
listen to the voice saying...
-please do not depart...!
30/12-10
Short circuit
thoughts colliding
crash...
boom...
bang...
30/12-10
Poetry 2010
Copyright © N.M.
